It's about to get real

So, here is this weeks rundown. Monday morning I spoke to Dr Curcio over the phone and she had reviewed all my labs and reports and there were no discrepancies in the original results and she had spoken to the plastic surgeon and we were ago to get me on the schedule, so the scheduler from her office would call me the next day. So Samantha from her office called me Tuesday and said the soonest they could get me in was May 13th.  I was a little disappointed that it was so far out, cause i really just want this out already!! But we started making plans, Dad's flying out and everyone figuring out days they can take off to be on Katrina duty. Then Wednesday we drove down to Orange to meet with oncologist Dr Link, he was also disappointed that surgery was so far out, but said he would start me on tamoxifen (hormone blockers) now, so that we could treat the cancer in the meantime. I was glad he was being proactive and we were gonna be actively fighting, but also very nervous about starting. Decided that since we are going to Joshua Tree this weekend, that I did not need to compound my stress by starting the medication. So I'll start taking it Sunday when we get home. But then today I received a call from Dr Curcio's office stating that per Dr Link's request they have moved my surgery date to May 5th!!!! As in 10 days!! I have been so anxious about trying to hurry up and get this going and over with, but now that it's just around the corner, I am a little freaked out!!! Holy Crap, this is really happening!   Time to get serious.  Gottaa start gathering comfy clothes and pillows and downloading movies and books.  Any suggestions on good books  or movies anyone  has scene or read lately?