Blah, Blah, Blah

Day 4 of first chemo treatment.  This is rough!  Not sure what I expected or if there was any way to really be prepared for this.  Everything hurts.  I am so drained.  It is a little scary thinking of what is happening to my body.  Knowing that all of these symptoms are being caused by things in my body being poisoned and no longer working properly is very creepy and unpleasant.  My doctor gave me a list of some of the side effects to expect and he mentioned a major case of the blah's and that is pretty accurate.  I just feel blah all over.  My tummy feels blah, my head feels blah, my mouth feels blah. I have no energy and my brain is fuzzy.  Its just pretty much....Blah!!!!  It's difficult to go from feeling like a healthy, fit young woman and then bam suddenly being told that you actually are not healthy and the only way to actually be healthy is to become a sick person!!  I know I need to focus on the big picture and know that I will be that healthy, fit young woman again, but right now I just need a good pout!!