sushi, pedi's and wine

5 weeks post chemo.

Spent time with friends drinking wine. Check!

Pedicure. Check!

Sushi. Check!

Hair growth.............

I guess 3 out of 4 ain't bad!

Getting back to normal.

29 days until the plastic cups on my chest are gone!!! Yay!!

Messes, masks and muscle aches

At home trying to do a little bit of work from home since I feel terrible that I have missed so much work.  Unfortunately after Labor Day weekend, we all returned back to the office to find a river running through it!  A toilet broke over the weekend and completely flooded the entire office.  It is awful.  Furniture was moved and disassembled, carpet torn out, base boards removed, large fans and dehumidifiers plugged in and tubes and plugs running all over the office.  I am paranoid and freaked out about what bacteria is forming or what's floating around in the air.  I left the office early and missed days last week and ended up having to wear a face mask when I was there.  It's embarrassing, annoying and frustrating.  Chemo treatments are over, but it is still a major inconvenience in my life!! My immune system is still compromised and I still don't know how worried I have to be about getting sick!  The doctor doesn't recommend that I be there. It's a little scary. But I just want to be back to normal.  I cant wait to be able to get back to my normal routine. Normal work routine and also normal workout routine.  I have been anxious to get back to exercising, but it is slow going.  My legs have pretty bad muscle and bone pain and any cardio has been pretty hard to do much of.  It's frustrating.  I know its only been three weeks and I need more patience, but I am just so excited to get back to normalcy. But today has been three weeks and one day, so this is the longest my body has been without any poisons in it for over three months! ;)

I made it!

Laying in bed at 8am with Riley on this great day off on this beautiful Labor Day, shockingly my husband has made me breakfast in bed, and I am just soaking up the extra rest.  Besides the crazy tiredness I am feeling pretty good. The "yucky" is gone. No more nausea or queasy, the pain and aches are gone, the numbness and tingling is gone, the film in my mouth is Almost gone and I can taste my food. Things are good. I made it!  This was a battle that I never expected to have to fight and really took me off guard, but I am grateful that I had the tools to fight it.  I have really good friends and family,  I have good bosses and coworkers and because of them I have good insurance and I have good doctors.  I feel so awful for anyone going through this that is not lucky enough to have all of that support to get through this.  This was not easy and I could Not have done it without all of  the awesome support that I have.   I know that this battle is probably not really over.  I still have medications and screenings to deal with and I think that once you have CANCER there is always going to be that fear and worry and risk of a recurrence  and you will probably never really be completely at ease, but I am going to  do my best to be hopeful and positive and enjoy this wonderful life.   Looking forward to all the little things. Can't wait til my immune system is back to normal so I can get a pedicure and eat sushi. Looking forward to growing hair!  To working out. To just living my normal life.  And thank you to all of the people in my life for making it such a wonderful life to live.